The madness is striking me again today. As usual, after work I will go directly to pick Xuan back home. When I see him playing at the house compound and the two big kor kor is playing among them. I am damn mad at that time and when Xuan saw me and I yet to get out from my car, my little boy comes over to open the gate for me. I can say that I am damn mad and I am sure my face was very black and long. I keep on scolding my little boy and then only I saw the babysitter coming out from the house.
The babysitter asks me to scold Xuan cos she asked Xuan not to come out but he insisted to. He still wants to play and I force myself to carry him to my car. He’s crying pitifully. Throughout the journey back home, I really cannot stand not to scold my poor little boy. I really cannot control my madness and furious. I really cannot image what would happen to me when something really happen to my one and only precious son. I can tell you that I will definitely go INSANE.
I don’t mean that I don’t allow my boy to come out to play but make sure the babysitter is there to monitor them. I do feel bad for scolding my precious little boy and showing bad temper in front of the babysitter but don’t know lar….
As you gals know that my Xuan are too addicted with the pacifier. It is quite tough at the beginning to wean him off especially when you see him begging for it. It really makes my heartache but I have to stand firm in order to wean him off.
